The person I mention yesterday as my "FIRST LOVE"

Today didn't rain at all..It seem just dry today...Didn't rain...I hope it was raining though...

#Put on an earphone into my ears and playing Loving you by G.Na#

Okay so today I would like to revealed who is that person I'm talking about.The person who I was said as my"First Love"...

#Now Playing I'll be back off so you can live better by G.Na#

~~I’ll back off so you can live
Say it directly, looking at me
Say it looking into my eyes~~

There's one sentences that I love the most that's shown above....

Okay times to revealed of the person I mentioned yesterday...

Well, don't misunderstanding it...

The person I mean not a boy it's a girl...

It my dear cousin though...So don't misunderstanding it all...

The person I mean was my dear cousins..All of them who live in somewhere far from here...

They are those people who I love the most and cherish the most too...

Just like my언니 and 오빠...

They are my beloved sisters and brothers who always played around with me when I was little..

However the one who I very closed to was just one of them..The one who close and the one I mention that I miss that person whenever I separated with them and whenever the day we separated I'll cried hardly...

#Now Playing Rumors By G.Na#

And yeah of course we're all grown up already and no longer the little kids who we knew each other long time ago.We all grown up already.....

So we no longer spending a whole day with each other already...

We all got our own pathway...

~~I, I gotta let go

I, I gotta let let you go
Oh oh oh oh oh, Oh oh oh oh ~~~

Perhaps,those are the words which can described my feeling right now.."Gotta let you go"

Gotta let what had pass to go..and don't leave it behind here...let's it go freely...and face the new world...

Yeah,Let's go of the childhood moments and bear it in my mind only....

Hahaha..Maybe it was kinda funny childhood story...First love and everything..Perhaps there'll be some of you think that I'm an abnormal..Nah..No I'm not of course I'm not..I just a person who cherish the person who treated me nicely...

Maybe I cherish my relationship between my cousins and family than cherish my relationship with other person who I just meet not so long such as love relationship..Perhaps,that I don't cherished that much of those love relationship that much...I cherished those relationship between my family and my cousins...

My true childhood story...

#Staying at home and looking outside the window when it was raining heavily outside#

I remember those wonderful and unforgettable day.I always the happy go round little girl.nothing to get confused or think of.Just playing around like an ordinary kids.Running and running....non stop..never get tired...

I just sat down and listened to SAD MEMORIES BY MBLAQ which is only piano playing in the song..The song sound so beautiful and bring my childhood back to me.

#Flashback the time during I was a kids#

Remember those days we always play around together.The unforgettable memories that I have with you all were when we playing "masak-masak" and selling vegetables outside the field we have in front of the house.Every weekend,every evening,we always played around at outside..and having a crazy evening day at outside..I remember that I'll be the buyer who buy vegetables...

Remember that vegetables that we used to pretend was the grass and flowers we picked from the tree.And also the grasses as the "fresh vegetables" which was the name we given.

It was always the great day being in the childhood moments.We always played around and got nothing to be consider or confused of..Just play our role as a kids who are innocent and playing around...It's the best ever.

#The song that is playing change to CRY BY MBLAQ#

The song that was playing now making me think of sad moments again.

After the day you all move to somewhere else.I never get the happy day like when you guys were around me.I became alone and lonely.So whenever I met up with you I'll be glad and happy but whenever I separated with you I'll be sad and crying alone at night in my room.My mum asked me and even scolded me for stopped me from crying like a fool.It's nonsense to cried like that.However,I can't control because whenever I get back from meeting with you,I'll get sad and missing you a lot and thinking that why time goes by that fast??Why can't we stayed longer???I miss you so much that no one can understand.You're such a sweet person for me..Always treated me nicely and I miss you a lot after spent my day with you and separated with you..I'll always cried whenever listened to the song that were playing while we're together.

#The song changed again into BaBaBa by 4MINUTE#

I remember that I always ended up crying after spending my day with you and I did the same until I was 10 years old...I had stopped my stupid attitude when I was 10 years old.I had stand up myself and told myself to be strong not to cry anymore whenever after we met up.No one could ever understand how much I miss you after separated with you and how much I was sad after met you and then separated again with you..The long I stayed with you the more I'll be sad..I don't know when I realized that you'd the same feeling to against me...I don't which day is it I saw you waving to me when we were separated..I saw you waving to me right after my parents fetched me and the van had move far away from your house...you're still waiting outside and waved to me...And from that day,I know and realized that you're so lovely and so sweet to me...I miss you even more right after I realized about it..

#Now playing OASIS BY BEAST#

This song make me think of I always wrote letter to you and we always replying each other letter..no matter what...to tell each other how was our day...because that moment we didn't have any computer .So we used letter to keep in touch with each other....I remembered that i get jealous and envy with you when you reply the other person's letter and not mine..I get really mad of it and thinking of it so long..And after that we didn't write letter again to each other but then we still as close as we do.

#After the song OASIS was playing it was turning to YET BY BEAST#

~Got myself woke up from my flashback and looking at outside the rain was not that heavy already~

And now the song of YET reminded me that it had passed a while already..Perhaps it was about 10 years already.We were not that close already..Maybe it was due to our age..You were older than me and you got your own thought that was more mature than mine and I got mine which you thought it was childish.And this 10 years passed,we both had changed a lot.You become a much much mature person already and so do I.I also had grown up and not the little girl you used to know already..And now whenever we met we didn't have that much topics to talked with already.Perhaps it was due to our difference of age...you're born in 1989 and I'm 1993..It s a quite much different of age of it...One is 80s people and one is 90s people..So it was normal that we both were not that close now....

!!!Stop playing the song!!!

#My mum is calling me right now so I just have to stop here right now#

Walked away from the cushion that I'm sitting while outside was wet and the rain was not that heavy already...The rain was about to stop already....

Diary Girl(Oasis)

Regretless,

Gloomy day,

You leave me,

I 'm plight,

My day turn to dark and hopeless,

I wished time could review back,

Starring to the sky,

The questions of why keep run through my mind,

Still don't get it why you leave me,

I could just went back to the past,

And hold on you,

Bright day,

My day had been brighten up,

After a long time,

The way you ignore me is right,

It brings courage to me,

To face the reality I am in now,

The reality that you had leave me,

Now and forever,

I won't get regret again by the ignorant you had given to me,

I was a right choice to do,

That you ignore me,

It had built me up to a whole new person,

Getting more brighten,

My day getting even more brighten each day,

I am just regretless of it...

Oasis~~~~

"After walking that long the dessert,I finally found oasis,It makes me realized that this world provided miracle that need to be discover by us.."

Diary Girl(Regretless)

"I remember everything and every moment.I was with him,savoring his every move,smile and kiss.I never thought a person could be so precious to me.He was so beautiful,It hurts to look on him.But now it hurts to think of him.I memorized his face,dark eyebrows , dark black eyes .His hand,tan and strong could barely swallow my own .I had never loved anyone else the way I loved you.."

Those words had already fade away in my mind.I always thought that I couldn't put down this relationship.Yet,I was wrong.People were right,"Times can heal up everything.."Those words are really true.After a long time ,I had completely forget and put down about you.And you don't have to do anything again to me because my love for you had fade away .I'm no longer the you use to love before.I had put down our relationship.We are no longer have any relationship.If you want to be friend with me.I was just fine.And yet,I didn't lie about things like I had put down of you.You're completely being erase from my mind and my heart already.

Even,we are still friend if you don't mind .I always being fine with it.

Big breathe~~Yea times do heal everything.I can completely put down of you already.Thanks goodness...I didn't lie,I didn't pretending anymore this time...I really put down of it already.

Smile always @.@

Pasta (Korean drama that I love now)

This is the part I love the most..The chef(guy) came out and hug the girl suddenly....the girl was shock and didn't noticed he will hug her....What a shock hug she got..I wish I could got one a shock hug from the one I loved..I wish he could treat me like this give me a shock hug like the chef(guy) do....hahaha...

kawaii

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I love both of them so much...They both make a really sweet and adorable couple..I don't know how to describe it but Love it so much...........

chuu~~~~

Piano

My soul is the piano, his words are the keys.
Together we compose, the best of symphonies.

How my soul replays his words of the day.
Like a composer writing a play.

I hear the music, as he strikes a key.
an orchestra, is what I see.

Two soul that share a common ground.
a friendship they have found.

What is a piano, without the player.
It's like a soul, without a desire.

It sits alone in the dark,
waiting for someone to light a spark.

A hope or a desire,
waiting for someone to inspire.

To play a song of the heart,
a song of two souls that will never depart.

The shooting stars

Together, looking up at that distantly shinning star,

And thinking it was destined that we met,

Pretending to be usual,I try to touch your palm,

However you only smile gently,

Since these feeling are getting stronger and the number of worries are increasing,

Never let go of the heart you once embraced , no matter what happens,

In this vast universe , if I can keep staying near just you alone,

Even though the clock hand of broken time,

Soon starts to move slowly to ward the future,

Stay just as you are , just like this,

I whispered this wish softly to the flowing stars,

I pray that I can always be with you,

Close up just this one part of time in a glass box,

Since I don't want to make your gentle smile be clouded by worries,

When I want to start crying , I think of this high sky,

I found the place where just the two of us can be happy,didn't we?

HERE there are moon and stars and

night wind that wraps the two of us up together and my feelings about you alone....

You're the one ,who struggled here from that far country,

Are that shinning stars and shooting stars,

Incessantly, yes , like twinkling,

I swear to this night sky that I will embrace both you and the future...

In the forest of sky

Time has stopped in the forest of light and sky,

And the wind moves , with a faint murmuring,

Look, the lake shinning brightly,

Is the mirror reflecting,

What was lost that day,

I kept searching for the place where I first had that feeling,

Does it still sway on the other side of the light?

Surely happiness and sadness feel similar,

So close your eyes in your heart , and quietly embrace the sky,

There is nobody here,

During the afternoon of light and sky,

My lips were trembling from the kiss of the wind,

Look,the sun swaying and shinning brightly through the trees,

Knits together the light and shadow,

Like a lace work pattern,

I kept crying at the place where my feeling sleeps,

Is it disappearing now,

withing the green trees?

Surely "GOODBYE" is the start of my memory,

Unlock my heart and quietly embrace the forest...

The forest where you were

In the deep thick forest , there is a faint fragrance that is very dear,

When I try to find the faces of the passing days , you laugh suddenly,

When I reach out my hand to touch it , I feel like I'm dancing in the far away space,

I've always wanted to see you and am thinking of you always,

Crossing the sleepless nights,

While I cry , I try to embrace what's left of you in the midst of light and shadows,

Hopelessly , I walk barefoot in the scorching sunset,

While stepping on the ruins of love that fades crimson,

When I hold out my hand to touch it , hear your voice,

Right now the words"I Love You"won't reach as the wind carries away my song,

It disappears far far away,

If I throw a clock of sand in the high skies , i hear the sounds of that day resounding ,

Fades away slowly,

"Don't disappear,"that hand and that hair , in the rapidly enlarging atmosphere and,

The light and shadow that you left is just too large,

In the deep thick forest...

The FAKE and TRUE happiness

It had been a while after we break up already.He had his own pathway and I have my own.However , even we'd break up already SHANE and I were still friends.We kept our friendships.Even we can't be lover we still can be friends.

But there's one thing that 's really annoying for me very much.SHANE sometimes was such a jerk.Who does he think he is for making people like that?He's such a damn jerk.Sometimes his attittude do make people hate him.That's explain why he didn't got much friends.When he's mad , he just put his anger on others and didn't think of how people felt about it.

He said that he bring bad luck to others.Of course he did if he always think that way.Just don't argue with me anymore.What I said are all the truth, no lie about it at all.If you always think that you're lose then you;ll be the loser forever . but how if you're loser and you didn't admit it and didn't give up on winning and to be a winner.You'll become one if you think like that.SHANE such a loser. Even how many times I advised and told him that don't think like that , he will still have that thought.He just never received what people said to him.He never listen to others.

SHANE, SHANE why don't you just listen to me???I'm doing it was not for my own good but is for your own good.As for an example to you to see, if you keep to be stubborn and negative thoughts , never listen to others opinion , you will always be in darkness.The darkness will eat yo up and always following you only.I'd advise you was not for my self but I just can't see you to be in darkness in your whole life.I don't want you to live in there.I want to help you to get out from it.I'm not criticised about you,I never do that to people.All I want was just give you a hand and pulled to pull you out from the darkness and leave it all behind.I want to make a happy atmosphere for you.I can't just leave you behind cause I thought you as my true friend(+ a bit lover).How come you should be that stubborn of letting me to give you a hand.All I want just to help you from it ,i want you to be a better person in your future.I want you to meet up with the TRUE happiness in your future and not a FAKE one.I hope you understand of how much I care someone that I think the person is my true friend(+ a bit lover)

Coffee's Bitterness

Sure love is cool and sweet when your love had been accepted just like you expected and wish for.However,what did you feel now?When love had slowly become dull day by day now.Sure the time when you have with your love one were sweet and everything around you just felt glittering.But what you felt now , everything turned to something you are unexpected .SWEET turn to BITTER SWEET then slowly turn to SOURNESS and lastly turn to TASTELESS and SADNESS .No more HAPPY , SWEET TIME but SAD and TASTELESS.

Sure love is very amazing magic.You can felt SWEET about it and you can felt TASTELESS about it too.Love we have now , is it still called as love or is it over already.Just like a coffee once you have it, you fall with it and addicted with it . Can't be live without it but when you have it for long , you will taste of its BITTER and you'll started to change your mind about it...

Firstly, I do had my coffee for long time and I do LOVE it so much and don't want to let it go from my life cause I know it had been a routine for me to have coffee...However, for now I had taste the BITTER of the coffee.The taste of it make me very disappointed with it...I think is time to change now..Time to change my favorite drink to be TEA now...cause I felt disappointed with the TASTE of coffee now...It's no longer SWEET for me but just SOURNESS and TASTELESS plus SADNESS...