Useless daughter

Ever since I got my result,umma keep nagging on me even scold me for being immature and didn't help her to get "revenge" of it...

I just looking umma when she nagging at me like this :

When she nagging more and more I turned to this and tears staring flowing through my cheek..eyes getting red :

And then I will cry out and questioning myself why is it I have to did like this to her until umma get very disappointed with me...It was all my fault..I'm an useless daughter for her...can't help her at all...

Cry and cry questioning myself that I 'm such a useless daughter for my parents...Without me they might will live in more better than with my appearance in this family...

전 집에있어요.

It's been a while I din't update my blog because I was really busy with my fanfic in http://www.asianfanfics.com/ I can't stop from writing it..continue and continue just like that i always continue writing it....But now I had back...I will try to update my blog again.Won't let it be alone again...XDD

I learn this kind of selca from CUBE FAMILY...They had teach me taking selca like this...^^

HEART TO HEART - 4MINUTE

http://ihoneydew.com/female-groups/1406-4minute-heart-to-heart/

Heart to heart...4MINUTE NEW SONGS NEW ALBUM...LOVE THE SONG A LOT

고려.

Wow..

I learn a lot of things during these days of holiday while waiting for my exam result..

I had learn of house work such as cooking and every thing..

I had learned how to cook soup, sweet soup and many more..

I even know how to fried foods and vegetables...

These holidays really got a lot of things that I had get from it..

It was not useless or wasting holiday for me....

I also had reached to the world of reality too by my mum's nagging..

My mum keep nagging about me..

Making me wake up from my dreams..

Even though I still hold tight with my own dream....

Dream are not what we live for whole live...

Just something that motivate us but can't be live with dream only..

Need to be realistic...

Maybe what my mum said was true..

"STOP DREAMING ALREADY!"

"AND BE REALISTIC!!"

Perhaps she's right about it..

Perhaps I should put down my dream of being translator or anything else and just be a School teacher..

Maybe that dream of mine just can be my hobby after I done my work...

Yeah!!I made up my mind....Be a school teacher....

And that dream of mine just bear in my mind and keep it...

I can learn Korean right after I done my work(this is reference to the future)

Yeah,who said be a teacher can't learn Korean??Or any foreign languages?No,No one isn't it..So I can have it as my hobby after my work..

A part time activities right after I done my work..

SO yeah my mum was right..besides being a teacher what else I can do??

Nothing at all....

Besides being a teacher,all the jobs that are available just didn't have a permanent salary at all...

Perhaps,being a teacher is my pathway to live on in th future...

Okay I had decide that be a teacher and Learning Korean languages is my part time activities...

화이팅!!!

From today I'll try my best to learn Korean..

I'll use it in my blog when I was posting something...

So I can Improve it!!!

화이팅!!!

모두들 화이팅!!!

내가 할 수 믿습니다.

Hwaiting!!!!

해피 데이!

해피 데이!흥분!

Happy day!Excited!

So excited with the upcoming Shock MV(Japanese version)

I'd been looking forward it so much..I can't wait for it so much..

It was tonight!

Tonight will be the night...

The special night...

Yesterday i was unhappy and now,today I'm so happy and excited with tonight!

Can't long for it!!!!!!!!!!

나쁜 일.

Yesterday was a bad day for me...

My mum was nagging about me for whole day...

It was such a hard day for yesterday...

야!!!!!!!!!!!!

Such a bad day yesterday..It was hard to go through yesterday..

ᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮᅮ

넌센스 가지 내가했다!

CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!CRAP I HAVE DURING HOLIDAY!

난 너무 바보입니까?

내가 어떻게 그렇게 바보처럼 보이죠?

My day

I'm blank here..

No idea of writing any stories or what..

Maybe I just update my daily life then..

About what I had been through today and what is the happy and sad things that had happen today...

:::::::::::::::::::::::::::NOW PLAYING JUST BEFORE SHOCK:::::::::::::::::::::::::::

What had happen today was...I woke up early and thought that my mum would took me to cut my hair..However,my mum turned to me and said to me..

"Oh yes,I forgot about that" while keep making tart...

Well what I was thinking was.."oh man!!how could she???I woke up early just want her to take me to cut my hair but then she just realized about it..

Firstly, I really get very mad with my mum because I had woke up early but then she just said one word that's it"I forgot."Then every thing was cancel...

Never mind then,just let it be tomorrow....

:::::::::::::::::::::::::::NOW PLAYING TAKE CARE OF MY GIRLFRIEND:::::::::::::::::::::::::::

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I'm desperate right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

When will I get to know Korean?????????????????

Now,I had learned it..and I know to read it already and also with some of my friend help in FACEBOOK I'm getting understand about Korean language..But then until now I just know to read it but I don't understand of what the meaning of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Could anybody help me?????????????

I need help right now!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know to read it but don't know what the meaning of it.................

SO DESPERATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The person I mention yesterday as my "FIRST LOVE"

Today didn't rain at all..It seem just dry today...Didn't rain...I hope it was raining though...

#Put on an earphone into my ears and playing Loving you by G.Na#

Okay so today I would like to revealed who is that person I'm talking about.The person who I was said as my"First Love"...

#Now Playing I'll be back off so you can live better by G.Na#

~~I’ll back off so you can live
Say it directly, looking at me
Say it looking into my eyes~~

There's one sentences that I love the most that's shown above....

Okay times to revealed of the person I mentioned yesterday...

Well, don't misunderstanding it...

The person I mean not a boy it's a girl...

It my dear cousin though...So don't misunderstanding it all...

The person I mean was my dear cousins..All of them who live in somewhere far from here...

They are those people who I love the most and cherish the most too...

Just like my언니 and 오빠...

They are my beloved sisters and brothers who always played around with me when I was little..

However the one who I very closed to was just one of them..The one who close and the one I mention that I miss that person whenever I separated with them and whenever the day we separated I'll cried hardly...

#Now Playing Rumors By G.Na#

And yeah of course we're all grown up already and no longer the little kids who we knew each other long time ago.We all grown up already.....

So we no longer spending a whole day with each other already...

We all got our own pathway...

~~I, I gotta let go

I, I gotta let let you go
Oh oh oh oh oh, Oh oh oh oh ~~~

Perhaps,those are the words which can described my feeling right now.."Gotta let you go"

Gotta let what had pass to go..and don't leave it behind here...let's it go freely...and face the new world...

Yeah,Let's go of the childhood moments and bear it in my mind only....

Hahaha..Maybe it was kinda funny childhood story...First love and everything..Perhaps there'll be some of you think that I'm an abnormal..Nah..No I'm not of course I'm not..I just a person who cherish the person who treated me nicely...

Maybe I cherish my relationship between my cousins and family than cherish my relationship with other person who I just meet not so long such as love relationship..Perhaps,that I don't cherished that much of those love relationship that much...I cherished those relationship between my family and my cousins...

My true childhood story...

#Staying at home and looking outside the window when it was raining heavily outside#

I remember those wonderful and unforgettable day.I always the happy go round little girl.nothing to get confused or think of.Just playing around like an ordinary kids.Running and running....non stop..never get tired...

I just sat down and listened to SAD MEMORIES BY MBLAQ which is only piano playing in the song..The song sound so beautiful and bring my childhood back to me.

#Flashback the time during I was a kids#

Remember those days we always play around together.The unforgettable memories that I have with you all were when we playing "masak-masak" and selling vegetables outside the field we have in front of the house.Every weekend,every evening,we always played around at outside..and having a crazy evening day at outside..I remember that I'll be the buyer who buy vegetables...

Remember that vegetables that we used to pretend was the grass and flowers we picked from the tree.And also the grasses as the "fresh vegetables" which was the name we given.

It was always the great day being in the childhood moments.We always played around and got nothing to be consider or confused of..Just play our role as a kids who are innocent and playing around...It's the best ever.

#The song that is playing change to CRY BY MBLAQ#

The song that was playing now making me think of sad moments again.

After the day you all move to somewhere else.I never get the happy day like when you guys were around me.I became alone and lonely.So whenever I met up with you I'll be glad and happy but whenever I separated with you I'll be sad and crying alone at night in my room.My mum asked me and even scolded me for stopped me from crying like a fool.It's nonsense to cried like that.However,I can't control because whenever I get back from meeting with you,I'll get sad and missing you a lot and thinking that why time goes by that fast??Why can't we stayed longer???I miss you so much that no one can understand.You're such a sweet person for me..Always treated me nicely and I miss you a lot after spent my day with you and separated with you..I'll always cried whenever listened to the song that were playing while we're together.

#The song changed again into BaBaBa by 4MINUTE#

I remember that I always ended up crying after spending my day with you and I did the same until I was 10 years old...I had stopped my stupid attitude when I was 10 years old.I had stand up myself and told myself to be strong not to cry anymore whenever after we met up.No one could ever understand how much I miss you after separated with you and how much I was sad after met you and then separated again with you..The long I stayed with you the more I'll be sad..I don't know when I realized that you'd the same feeling to against me...I don't which day is it I saw you waving to me when we were separated..I saw you waving to me right after my parents fetched me and the van had move far away from your house...you're still waiting outside and waved to me...And from that day,I know and realized that you're so lovely and so sweet to me...I miss you even more right after I realized about it..

#Now playing OASIS BY BEAST#

This song make me think of I always wrote letter to you and we always replying each other letter..no matter what...to tell each other how was our day...because that moment we didn't have any computer .So we used letter to keep in touch with each other....I remembered that i get jealous and envy with you when you reply the other person's letter and not mine..I get really mad of it and thinking of it so long..And after that we didn't write letter again to each other but then we still as close as we do.

#After the song OASIS was playing it was turning to YET BY BEAST#

~Got myself woke up from my flashback and looking at outside the rain was not that heavy already~

And now the song of YET reminded me that it had passed a while already..Perhaps it was about 10 years already.We were not that close already..Maybe it was due to our age..You were older than me and you got your own thought that was more mature than mine and I got mine which you thought it was childish.And this 10 years passed,we both had changed a lot.You become a much much mature person already and so do I.I also had grown up and not the little girl you used to know already..And now whenever we met we didn't have that much topics to talked with already.Perhaps it was due to our difference of age...you're born in 1989 and I'm 1993..It s a quite much different of age of it...One is 80s people and one is 90s people..So it was normal that we both were not that close now....

!!!Stop playing the song!!!

#My mum is calling me right now so I just have to stop here right now#

Walked away from the cushion that I'm sitting while outside was wet and the rain was not that heavy already...The rain was about to stop already....

Cherish That Person(Story)

We always be best friend ever since we were little.We did every thing together and never separated with each other.

Me:Wow such a big tree!(amazed by the big tree in front of me)

Popping:WOW!not big but huge,Minnie.(being amazed by the huge tree too)

~~Both of us starring at the tree~~

Me:How about we promised under this big tree?(I suddenly sounded)

Popping:Promise?(With a curious face)

Me:Yupz...(smile)

Popping:Why should we make a promise?

Me:Since you say you will move away.And go somewhere that is far away from here.So we make a promise under this tree and after 10 years we meet up at here too...(say it innocent-ly since we are still kids we didn't know anything of the hurt of being separated)

Popping:Okay(Smile and put out his pinky finger and met up with mine)

~~Pinky finger swear~~

After pinky swear we smiled happily just like a couple of innocent kids.

However,after that moment I never saw him again.He never came back even once.I always went to visit the tree.

Yet,every time was the same..I couldn't met him at all.Always the same.The leaves even falling the same way every time.When leaving the tree I always full of hesitation just like how I watching him walking from me.The day he move away I even didn't get the chance to sent him away to the airport.I miss him after 10 years passed by.I'd already 17 years old.The teenage me who ain't to be that little girl when he saw me in the age of 7 years old.10 years had really passed very fast..This 10 years without you,every day seem nothing special for me.Every time I walked back from school I would go to visit the tree and hoping that you will come back earlier.

~~Winter had come~~

The year was about to end.It was November already and it was winter season already.You had promised me that you will came back after 10 years but I didn't see you at all.

~~November had passed really fast~~

It was December right now.I'm listening to the song that called December by 4Minute and went to visit the tree again.However,you didn't shown up again.What's going on with our promise?You said and promise under the tree 10 years ago that you will come back to reunion with me under the tree once again.

~~End of December~~

The snow falling even more.The whole scene being covered by the thick snow.My mum told me not to go there since it was snow heavily.Yet,I didn't listened and went to there again while listening to the song Cry by MBLAQ.It makes me frustrating when listening it.There is one sentences that make me frustrating listening to it.

:::U make me cry (You)

The reason I live on
Please don’t leave me
Just tell me why (why)
Oh wipe my tears tell me I’m so crazy (yeah):::

I just listened to that song on the way to the tree.

However,when I reached there the song I listened suddenly change after played the song Cry by MBLAQ.

It was a familiar song to me.

:::I truly cherish him, I cherish that person
Perhaps I was born here because I like that person
The words: I always love you, the words: I'm always missing you
As much as those words are always inadequate, I cherish that person:::

~~And there he was~~

He had come back.Am I dreaming?I pinched myself and NO,I'm not dreaming.It was really him...The song CHERISH THAT PERSON by YoSeob kept playing in my iPod.

He just standing right in front of me and the scene was just like how we first make a promise under the tree.

Me:You're back.(Smile)

Popping:Yeah,I'm back.(smile back)

From that moment,the song of cherish that person kept playing in my mind.

*The End*

OMO!!!This is such a great story..I hope I'm the Noona..but unfortunately I'm the dongsaeng only for DONGWOON Oppa

Characters

Dongwoon, You (The fictional girl), Jessie (your best friend!)

Description

Im a highschool student. There is this guy.. Who really pisses me off. He's younger than me..

I don't know why but.. for some reasons..

He's really annoying.. His moves.. everything! He acts like he's the "Campus Hearthrob".. Where in fact, he's not even attractive!

Foreword

How will they fall in love? Or Will they fall in love?

Chapter 1

Your POV

Im a highschool student. There is this guy.. He's younger than me..

He really pisses me off.. I dont know.. But for some reasons..

He's really annoying! He acts like he's the "Campus Hearthrob".. Where in fact he's not that attractive!

"Hey! Are you listening to me?!" Jessie asked "Ohh... yeah.. what is it again?" i replied "I said i hate my thesis members.. They are all lazy! hmp." she pouted. "We're just the same.." We suddenly saw "him" pass by. "Oh! It's JUNPYO!" Jessie exclaimed

My friend used to call him "Junpyo" and call me "Jandi".. They were characters of a cute t.v. drama, "Boys over flowers".

"Duhh.. Maybe it's you who likes him.." i mumbled "Yah! Ofcourse not! Im for Kim Bum!" she exclaimed

She also thinks she was one of the characters in there. Wherein her partner was "Kim Bum".

Dongwoon's POV

I saw those two girls again. I feel like Im the one they are talking about. Everytime i pass, the girl would smile like she's teasing the other girl and that girl would just fake a smile like she's pissed off.

"Hey, what are you going to buy?" my firend asked "Anything.." i answered "Thinking of her again?" he asked "Of her? who?" i asked "Ofcourse, you girlfriend! Is there other girls?" he joked "Nahh~ There nothing better than her.." i smiled

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Your POV

"Im so excited for the volleyball competition!" i exclaimed

Because there is an upcoming sports fest. and i will be joining the Volleyball competition. It's my favorite sport!

"Aww.. I wish i could also join.." Jessie pouted "Why don't you join? It's free to join.." i said "Yay! I don't know how! By the way, JUNPYO is going to join too! he's going to play for basketball!" she exclaimed "What are you expecting me to do?" i replied "Come on, what kind of reaction is that!" she mumbled "How do you want me to react? Jump in so much happiness?" i said "You probably should.." she replied

She's my bestfriend. But sometimes, she really annoys me. She really thinks she's my "Fairygod mother". I remember the time when she makes a way for me and her brother's classmate. She gave the cellphone number of her brother's classmate. At first, i was in doubt of texting him. But, we ended up having sweet conversations thru text. But it did not last long. And now, she's making a way again. But why with that "kid"?! -.-

Dongwoon's POV

I don't really wanna join that basketball competition. I was too lazy for that.

"Cheer up!" my girlfriend said "Aww.. i dont really wanted to join!" i muttered. "Don't worry.. I'll be there for you!" she said. "What are you going to join by the way?" "Volleyball.." she replied.

Chapter 2

[SPORTS FESTIVAL]

Your POV

The day ended and we lost the game. Hmp. If only those second year students were not in our team. We should have won! But it's a good news that "Junpyo" and his team won the basketball competition. We were about to go home. I entered the van as i searched for my cellphone in bag. But, i can't find it.

"Oh my god! My cellphone!" i shouted as i jump out of the car. "Hey! We're about to go!" my classmate shouted

Where did i put it? No, not this time. I entered a room where we all put our things while we were playing. The room was wide. And there's still so many bags in there. And.. I saw "Junpyo" still fixing his things in there. Don't mind about him! Mind about the cellphone!

Dongwoon's POV

I was fixing my things alone in a room. My classmates were already outside waiting for the van to come to fetch us. I saw "her" enter the room. She seemed like she's looking for something. And i saw her worried face. maybe there's something missing that must be hers.

"Want some help?" i asked

Your POV

What? help? he's going to help me?

"Uhhh.. yeah.. my cellphone is missing.." i answered with teary eyes. "Let me help you.." he said as he tries to look for it. I was happy that someone is willing to help me. And it was "him." I thought he wasn't that nice. I was tired of looking for it when i accidentally touched my pocket at the back of my pants. And the Cellphone was there!

"Oh my god! Why didn't i recognized it was on my pocket!" i exclaimed happily

Dongwoon's POV

What O.O what an.. an idiot!

"So i guess we can go home now?" i fake a smile. "yeah.." she replied.

We got out of the room only to find out that we were the only one left in here. "Damn! they left us!" i whispered

Your POV

I heard him curse. Duh. It's not my fault! he's the one who offered me help. i didn't insist. The rain started to fall.

"Hey! Are you an idiot! You might get wet!" he said as he grabs my hand. "Don't call me idiot Junpyo!" i replied as i let go of my hands from him. I walk away from him. Hmp. he's really annoying! he's calling me, a first honor student, an idiot?! He's the idiot! Did i just called him "Junpyo"? Hmp. Whatever!

Dongwoon's POV

"Junpyo?" i smiled

I really look like Junpyo. Man, you're the best! Haha >:) I decided to text my parents of what happened. We're just waiting for nothing in here.

~~[After 30 mins.]~~

Your POV

If ever the rain stopped, i would totally go home, ALONE. I suddenly saw a car arrived and i saw "him" talk to the driver of the car.

"Damn. Im left behind in here.." i whispered as i was looking into them. I saw him look at me as he walks into my direction. "Aren't you going home?" he asked. "Ofcourse i will!" i answered "So what are you waiting for? Let's go now!" he exclaimed as he grabs my hand. I was totally going to slip. "hey wait, Aww.. this kid don't know how to respect.." i muttered.

Final Chapter

[THE NEXT MORNING]

Your POV

It was breaktime. Jessie and I used to go to a place where no one can see us during breaktimes. I was thinking of saying to her what happened yesterday but.. Im pretty sure she would broadcast it to our classmates. -.- So i just kept quiet. I saw "him" pass by and i fake a smile as a sign of "thank you."

"Yay! I saw that!" Jessie exclaimed. "saw what?" i asked (Oh my god!) "You smiled on him!" she smiled like she's starting to tease me again. "Aww.. I didn't.. im just happy today so don't ruin my mood.." i said as i pretended to read the book im holding. Haha. I won! It's the first time i won over her! I acted like im serious.

The school bell suddenly rang. "Let's go now.." Jessie said. This time she turned out to be sad. Wow? My fault?

Dongwoon's POV

I saw she smiled on me. i don't know why but i felt so happy. When i came back, they are not there anymore. So i decided to sit there where they used to sit and talk every breaktime. I saw a wallet there. It was a brown wallet. Well i guess it's not bad if i open it, im just going to look if who's wallet is this. When i opened it, i saw a picture. Oh~ It was "hers."

"Dongwoon! I heard about what happened yesterday! Who's the girl you're with?!" My girlfriend suddenly shouted at me. "Huh? What!? How did you know?" i asked. "Im sorry, Dongwoon.." my friend arrived. (Gahh.. I used to trust him with these stories.) "Listen.. We were accidentally left by the van, ok? nothing happened.." i said. "Really? Who's wallet is that?!" she asked as she grabbed the wallet from my hand. "This.. is a third year high school, and the girl you're with yesterday was also a third year highschool! Is she your new girl!?" she said. "Darn. Why are you so overeacting!" i grabbed the wallet and walk away.

[DISMISSAL TIME]

Your POV

I was about to go home. "Hey.." he held my hand. "What?" i asked. He showed me my wallet. (Oh~ I didn't recognized..) "How.." i said and he cut me off. "You left it on the place where you were always sitting during breaktime." "Oh~ Ok.." i said asi continued to walk. "Don't i deserve a THANK YOU?!" he asked. "Ohh.. i have been looking for this the whole time.. " i replied. "Aww.. Don't you know that because of that wallet that's why me and my girlfriend had a problem?" he said. "So it's my fault?".. He didn't anymore followed me. Aww.. Why am i so arrogant like this.. I didn't even thanked him.. But he's blaming me! -.- I wonder what happpened.

Dongwoon's POV

I didn't anymore followed her. She's so arrogant. She didn't even thanked me.

"Hey Dongwoon, what's up? New girl?" my friend said. "Nahh~" i replied. Then a plan suddenly popped in my mind. What if we.. secretly follow her and scare her? Haha. She's playing to be that brave, huh? "Could you help me?" i asked my friend. "Sure.. What is it?"

Your POV

While i was walking home, i felt that there's someone following me. I look at my back but i saw nothing. But when i continued walking, i bumped on someone familiar.

"Hi baby.." he said. "I-i know you.. You're a high school student! Get out of my way.. Im not in the mood.." i said as i continued to walk but he blocked me. And i saw another five of them blocking also my way. "You can't escape with us.." the other one said. What the.. Im older than these guys.. "Hey! Learn to respect who's older than you!" i tried to shout. But they continued to walk into my direction like they were going to.. RAPE me!! OMO~! I walked backwards looking at them. I was feeling so scared when i stepped on someone behind me. It was.. "Dongwoon?" i said. "Got some problem?" he smiled. "Aww.. Dongwoon, could you stay out of this?" the boy said.

Dongwoon's POV

Great actors! Haha. The plan worked! I saw her like she was so scared. "D-dongwoon.." she said with her teary eyes. "Don't worry.." i said as i put her behind me and face the boys. As far as i remember i told them to punch me. And they really puched me.. to death. "Damn! Stop it!" i whispered so hard. "Hey! He told us to act like we were totally puching him not to really punch him hard!" my friend whispered. "Just leave!" i mumbled. Aww.. my face hurts. -.-

"Dongwoon!" she said running to me. "Aww.. You don't know how to fight them.. You're useless.." she pouted. "What the! I helped you and that's what you're going to give me back?" i replied angrily. "Ohh~ Im.. sorry.. " she said this time like she's concerned. I dont really know how to deal with her. She's moody. "So where's your house? I'll help you.." she smiled. It made my heart jumped. She's concerned on me!

[AT DONGWOON'S HOUSE]

Your POV

Yay! He's so heavy. I regret that i offered to help him. keke~ I placed him on his bed. So what now? Cure his wounds? Hmp. >.<

"Where's the alcohol.." i asked. "No, no don't!" he replied. "What?! You're scared with alcohol? Hahaha." i laughed. "Ofcourse not!" he replied. I got the alcohol and poured it on the cotton. "Let's see.." i said teasing him. I was about to put the cotton when he pulled my arm and we ended up like we almost kissed. I looked into his eyes and i feel like i was blushing!

"Age doesn't matter.." he whispered and smirked at me.

[AFTER FEW DAYS..]

Your POV

It feels like everything happened so fast. I heard that he broke up with his girlfriend. It made me happy, to be honest. After what happened that day, he started to somewhat like he's courting me. Asking help from my classmates, like telling me to finally accept him. One day, it was dismissal and i was going home but before i could get out of the campus gate, he blocked my way.

He smiled at me. "Please?" he said. I look at him with curiousity. "Please?" i asked. "Please.. Be mine noona.." he said. And suddenly my classmates started to tease us. "Aww.. Stop playing hard to get.." they started to say. "Do you want me to kneel?" he asked as he started to kneel. "Hey don't.." i said pulling his arm to stand up but he didn't. "Ok, fine.." i said. "Sure? Why you're not smiling? Maybe you don't really want.>" he said with a sad expression. Aww.. I smiled at him. "I love you, ok? Im already yours~" He stood up smiling and kissed me on my lips. O.O >///<

When the Door Closes

A short story based on Dujun & Dongwoon's song 'When The Door Closes'~~~~

A/n: The guy can either be Dujun or Dongwoon, since I didn't mention any names in the story...

“You’re…breaking up with me..?” he managed to choke out, looking at the girl before him with pain clearly evident in his eyes. “Why? Did I do something wrong to you? Was I wrong?”

“No. It’s just that I—” the girl said, cutting herself off with a sigh, trying to stop herself from shedding the tears that were threatening to spill out of her eyes. “—I just…don’t love you anymore…”

“Oh…” he uttered, absolutely devastated. He heaved a sigh, heavily collapsing down onto the couch with his index finger and thumb pinching the bridge of his nose, indicating that he was thinking of something painful. After what seemed like forever of her just looking at him struggle with his obvious pain, he spoke up once more, diverting his eyes from hers. “Well…that…changes things…”

“Yeah,” she choked out in a tone that was totally devoid of any emotion. She managed to act her way through this horrendous breakup, looking as confident as ever, even though, on the inside, her heart was quickly shattering into millions of pieces.

Another wave of silence was exchanged, both of them deep in thought. She sighed heavily to herself, trying to calm her aching heart as she waited for him to speak once more. When he did, though, she was suddenly scared.

“So, do the last five years mean nothing to you?!” he snapped, making the pain in her chest ache more fervently. “After five years, you’re just going to let us fall into pieces?! After five years, you’re just going to break my heart?!”

By this point, he was unashamedly shedding tears as he looked at her with so much pain on his heavenly face that she felt her heart aching even more. Clenching her fists tightly to try to contain the pain within, she heaved out a sigh, forcing herself to stay composed. After all, she had to look like she simply didn’t care anymore. It was part of the deal.

“Well?!” he roared, frightening her. The pain and anguish in his eyes burned painful images in her mind, permanently scarring her. She only looked at him, a blank look on her face.

“Yes. That’s exactly what I’m doing,” she finally managed to say in a clear voice. He looked at her then, more shocked and outraged than pained.

Once more, the silence between the two of them was deafening. He just glared at her whilst she remained unmoved, staring straight into his eyes, trying to show him how sorry she was, which was a futile task, since he was morbidly unobservant when it came down to it.

After what seemed like an eternity of the silence, his face slowly softened up as he looked at her, stunned by her ethereal beauty. Although he was extremely aggravated, he couldn’t deny the fact that she was the most breathtaking being he’d ever encountered. Once more, he sighed, frowning deeply.

“Fine,” he managed to say, his expression hardening, imitating hers perfectly. “Let’s break up, then.”

“Goodbye,” she whispered, caressing his face slowly, making him cringe at the contact. Ignoring the sting at the rejection, she merely sighed once more and picked up her things, walking to the door, putting on her shoes. Before exiting their dorm, however, she looked back at him, saying, “I’m sorry…”

And with that, his life’s greatest treasure was gone…

He sighed to himself, collapsing back down to the sofa, curling himself up into a ball, his head resting against his knees. Clutching at his chest, he did the only thing that he could think of. Standing up, he went towards his sanctuary, picking up his journal and pencil before sitting down in front of the piano, his fingers gliding against the cool ivy as he began to compose a new song.

“

When this door closes

When the image of you disappears

I’ll probably spend the day in tears

Because of memories with you, I’m left alone

I wish that you’ll be happier

When I let go of this hand now

I’ll no longer have any reason to smile, but

When I see you smiling

In another’s embrace, I’ll try to smile...” he sang, tears slowly beginning to cascade down his face as he reminisced of her and their time together...

not me who write it..I just got it from some B2UTY..I found it very interesting so I want to share it here.

Story with Graphic

This is the picture of it...Above is the picture

I'll be updating a story with Graphic...

I don't know is it good or not but I try my best of it..

I try my best to imagine..

Just hope it won't be worse..

It a story based on my imagination while listening to the song that sing by YoSeob...

Cherish That Person

It inspired me a lot..and I draw it out...

I hope it won't be hard to understand with the Graphic...

그 사람을 아껴요 (My Princess OST Part.2)

Nyaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~

The song that sing by Yoseob in the My Princess Ost Part 2 is really sad...

His voice is so smooth and relaxing there...

It just like a lullaby for me..

A lullaby that make me wanna sleep..

His voice just make everything around gone moody when listening to this song...

I had put it as the first song that will be play in my blog..

TTATT

It's really a sad one...

It's like a heart broken song...but not completely a heart broken song..It also bring us some hope of it when listening to it..

It brings us hope in the relationship that being hold on was about to ruined up and then when listening to it making it feel like it will be still hope on it..

Make me think of the past but then I didn't regret of what I did though..

By the way,this song really good..

I felt so relax and felt every thing around is smooth going...(I don't know if got this word or not XD)

One word described this song..

NICE!!!

And yeah,the theme for my blog now is Purple color plus sad song..not really sad song just those songs just a smoother and slower song..it was inspired by Yoseob's song then I put it all sad and smooth songs...

The Sea Glass

The theme for today...

Purple color...

Well I have a story to be share here :

We're sitting on the cold shore combing,the sand around us looking for sea glass.It's windy ,and the cool mist coming off the waves feels cold and charming.We're bundled up in all our layers and he gently touches my face and kisses my lips.His blue-green eyes stare deep into mine and I feel him looking straight into my heart.

The brilliant rays of purple,gold and turquoise start to fade as the sun finishes setting.We stand up,wipe the sand off our pants and start walking to the parking lot.I take a deep breath and smell the salt and seaweed crawling in with the tide.

On our walk home,he holds my hand,and we laugh and talk about nothing of real significance.We talk slowly to savor the moment,to savor the time we have together.The trees seem to make a tunnel ,surrounding us and isolating us in our own little world.

When we get back to my house,we take the sea glass and put it in my jar."It's almost halfway filled,"he remarks,as I look at the tiny pieces filling the jar,There must be at least a hundred pieces in there,all of them different shapes and different colors.I suppose that if I counted them,there would be just as many as the days we have spent together, and the nights we have comforted each other on the phone.

Each piece of glass is a different color.I decide that they represent the ordinary days filled with insight and love.They are the most frequent ones,the every day ones.I notice that I put in a green oen today.It is day like today,that we shared together that the green ones represent the days in which one of us was upset and confided in the other.Although there are inly a few ,there are some and they're big.I think those are the ones that help the relationship grow the most.The white pieces are the biggest and the shiniest.They reflect the time one of us accomplished something or was really happy about something.One might represent him winning his car,another might be when I made the team,and yet there are so many I can't remember what each one represents.There are so few dark-brown ones.Those have the sharpest edges and cut your fingertips when you touch them.The cause tears and hurt.They're the ex-girlfriends, the not - too-long- ago crushes,the jealousy ,the fights.They are the painful parts of our relationship that will never go away,but have become smoother over time.

There is one brilliant bluish-purple piece of glass.It is very small,and I know exactly what it represents.It is the first time he said those three words that before that night were just tossed around and used carelessly by other guys.It represents the time when he looked deep into my eyes,brushed back my hair and told me he loved me.

All of the pieces of sea glass are strong,No matter how hard you try(and people have tried),they won't break.They may get smoother,maybe a little smaller ,but so do all memories.They are strong and will always be there and will never be lost.

Then there's a big rock.a big pink rock in the shape of heart,down at the bottom.Its shape represents exactly what it is.It's our hearts,with all the sea glass and memories and good times to come piled on top.Our small ,pink hearts,learning about each other and ourselves,pilling little green days on top of big white ones,avoiding the sharp brown ones and trying to find another blue one.It's our hearts,the ones that have grown to love each other.The ones that have spent over two years pilling memories on top,good and bad,to make two different,wonderful people.The glass jar will never break.The jar is our bodies that protect our hearts and memories.Like the sea glass,it is strong and even if one of us goes aways,it will still be there with all the memories left behind.

Say No!!!Say that you're still MINE....

I lie on my bed numb,

Unemotional,

Non-feeling,

Fear stains my memories as I reflected

on a placid morning,

Today my friend asked me if he could date you,

Numb,

As I had broken up with you,

He said he'd cherish you in my place,

It's okay,

It's not like we have anything to do anymore,

Sorry,

Apologize,

Forgive me,

That's all I heard,

That's all he said,

Stop saying it,

My heart doesn't hurt,

Please be a good boyfriend to her in place of me,

I sit immobilized,

I can't get myself to say that,

I can't sleep at night because of her,

Angry..Numb...Hurt....

Why?

With a forced smile I encourage him and sent her away,

The sad,sad sorrow,

I told him everything,

She can't drink a lot,

And she doesn't like smoke,

She hates being a lone,

So always be with her,

She loves anniversary,

Always celebrate her birthday and anniversaries,

I don't know why am I telling him this,

I know I'm going to turn around and regret,

But I still acted cool,

I know I'm going to be upset,

Behind my friend's back and begging him not to,

But I still do it,

My heart still can't seem to let you go,

I'm still loving you,

Say No,

Say no to him,

Tell him no,

Tell him your heart is still waiting

for me,

Say No,

You can't,

You will wait for me,

I took a deep long breath,

Then i closed my eyes,

I counted to three,

Then I open my eyes,

That was surprise,

It was not a dream,

She probably went to my friend already,

She won't be back,

I had sent her away.